Happy 49th Birthday Mom! Man if you were here I would have to be teasing you for getting old! Haha. I have missed you so very much this year. So much has happend in my life that I have wanted you here for but God had a bigger plan for our lives huh? I wish you had been able to meet Sean before you had to leave for heaven. He is the most amazing man…I know you and Daddy would approve.
Today I wish that you were here to celebrate your birthday with me. There are times when I just want to pick up the phone and call you. This new life Sean and I have started has been so exciting and I wish I had you here to share it all with us! There are always certain times of the year that are harder for me than others and this is one of them.
I know that when you were sick I wasn’t the greatest daughter I could have been. I know there are people that will never forgive me for my behavior. But it was too hard to see my Mom not be the same Mom I always knew. I know that you understood then and understand now and that is all that really matters to me.
Everyone says I had to grow up quickly but that was God’s plan…it took me a long time to understand that and not be angry. I am so greatful to have such a wonderful Mom that raised me so well in such little time. It seems like just yesterday we were going to the races and have our “solve the world’s problems” talks! I miss those Mom!
I hope that you are proud of me. I know that I may not have taken the paths that you had planned but I hope that I haven’t disappointed you. I like to think that you are proud of me but sometimes I wonder since I didn’t take the path a lot of people think I should have. But I am happy Mom! That is what counts right?? I just wish that you were here. I wish you could have seen my wedding and be here to be the Grandma you deserve to be! I know you and Daddy are looking down on me from heaven and watching over me and Sean!
We made such wonderful memories. Mom you were my Best Friend…even if I didn’t show it like I should have! I still remember being a bratty kid not wanting to go to sleep! Then later I remember “snug as a bug in a rug…sleep good my burrito baby!” Thank you for giving me the most wonderful memories to keep close and comfort me when I am missing you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA BOO!!!!! I love you and miss you!
I know you miss her Amy. I tried to help you through, but nothing can replace your Mom. I think of my sister all the time too. So many changes have occurred for all of us. I hope she would be proud of me and all my changes as well. It really stinks that she isn’t here to be part of us, but like you say I guess God had a different plan.
I too would have to make fun of her for getting old, after all I am the baby sister.
Love ya!
I called Grammy on Lori’s birthday to honor her memory & to let our Mom know I was thinking of Lori. I was thinking of you too.
Recently, Grammy, Vanessa & Garvin were at our house in Nekoma for dinner. We sorted through pictures, Thre are some for you. I think you will cherish them & I will do some mailings…when I find your address!
Love,
Aunt Lisa
(And, by the way, 49 is not old! THis 50 year old road her bicycle 100 miles to celebrate the birthday!)